I know you're down I know you've stopped believing

I found this in the library's files.

2008-04-10T18:44:55Z

When I was 12, my life was turned upside down. One day I awoke and found that my father had left for work and wouldn't be returning.

My parents never fought, and they seemed to be happy, but on that day I found out they were heading for divorce.

That morning went by in slow motion, so many thoughts were racing through my mind. I was worried for my mom; she was so devastated. I worried about communicating with my dad. And mostly, I worried about the future.

Everything changed after that day. I never felt like going to school; all I wanted to do was stay home and feel sorry for myself. Everyone around me seemed to be moving so fast, and I was moving in slow motion. I could never catch up, and I doubt I even wanted to. My friendships seemed so insincere. No one understood what I was going through. My mom and I grew very close. We were each other's support - our only support, it seemed.

I've grown so much since that day that I can't even recall who I was before this all happened. I'm not exactly stronger, but I've matured. I'm more respectful and treat people as I'd want to be treated. I know when people are doing me wrong, and I can stick up for myself. I've grown as a friend. I realize that people's problems are nothing to look down on. What might be nothing to you might be the world to them.

Looking back now, everything seemed so chaotic that I have no idea how I got to where I am today. Money was an issue, and there wasn't enough to make the house payment. My mom and I left our past behind and moved to Baldwinsville.

It wasn't a big change, but it was the best thing we could have done. I lost people I believed to be my friends, which is one of the most difficult things I've had to adjust to. Again, people can turn out to be the complete opposite of who you think they are.

Communication with my dad has been an issue. After he left, I felt differently about him and decided it was best to hold off from talking to him until I was ready. We eventually spoke after a year of not speaking, and it turned out that I wasn't ready. Today, we no longer communicate.

I've learned more than I ever thought I would since that first day. Be thankful for the people you have in your life, because one day they could be gone. Appreciate your friends because when you go through such a change, you learn who your real friends are.

Judging people does no good; they can turn around one day and be someone you never thought they could be, in good ways and in bad. Family is the most precious gift anyone could ask for, but sometimes your family can let you down, just like anyone else.

Everything happens for a reason. If at one moment it seems that life has given you a bad hand, just give it time and things will work themselves out.

I'm thankful today that this happened to me. This experience has altered my life in ways I never thought it would. The most important lessons I've learned and the most heartbreaking experiences I've had grew out of that one day.

Sometimes it's important not only to learn from your mistakes, but to learn from others' as well.

Rachel Boyce is a junior at C.W. Baker High School in Baldwinsville. Students, teachers or parents interested in participating in the Voices column should call Paul Riede at 470-2138 or e-mail him at citynews@syracuse.com

wahhh I feel so proud when i see this (I still have trouble reading it) but it was just such a great moment in my life and all the confidence and strength i got out of the whole experience was amazing.

i love lyric posts

2008-04-08T23:29:33Z

Here it comes, millennium
And everybody's talkin' bout Jerusalem
Is this the beginning or beginning of the end?
Well, I've got other thoughts my friend

See I've got my eyes on the skies
The heavenly bodies up high
And if you're in the mood to take a ride
Then strap on a suit and get inside

We don't need all these prophecies
Telling us what's a sign, what's a sign
Cause paranoia ain't the way to live your life from day to day
So leave your doubts and your fears behind

Don't be afraid at all
Cause up in outer space there's no gravity to fall
Put your mind and your body to the test

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edited a lot cause the rest is pure nonsense. This really reflects my thoughts for the past few days though and I'll be your best friend forever if you can tell me what the name of this song is muahaha.

bye bye bye ;)

I've been thinking a lot lately

2008-04-08T15:50:27Z

just about my life and I don't know kind of depressing thoughts. Thinking about the end of the world and all that haha. I'm so morbid and synnical.

I'm not afraid about dying but I'm afriad of not living (I feel like that's a line from a movie) I have so many goals and just really dumb things i want to do in my life. I want to go to Europe. I want to sing karoke, I want to go to a concert in central park. I want to go an a cross country road trip. I want to fall in love.. I don't need to get married.. i just want to let go of all my inhibitions and fully hand myself over to someone else and let them love me for me.

I've been wanting to do something for charity since high school. Like volunteering at a hospital or clinic. I did little things like donating blood and giving spare change to those jars on the counters at gas stations.

Anyways I had an idea a few nights ago to take advantage of my meet and greet so i can help other people. So here's what I'm going to do. I want to get the new Hanson inspired tom's and have the guys sign them and put them on ebay and have all the money (above the price of the shoes) got to HIVSA.

I thought this was a great idea but everybody I've told has seemed less than enthusiastic about it. Whatever though. I figure I'll get at least what i paid for for the shoes and any little bit helps.

I guess that if i do this, I can feel like I'm really helping someone.

I'd ask for thought and opinions but I'm not going to do that because of what people have told me. So if you think its a bad idea.. don't even bother commenting. But if you think it's a great idea.. by all means tell me how smart and creative i am lol.

Hope I didn't depress everyone with my sad, morbid post.

SHUT UP

2008-04-04T13:44:22Z

April 3, 2008 5:27PM EDT

Congratulations! You have won a Meet & Greet pass to the show in Allentown.
Please read this entire message carefully! Please arrive at least 2 hours
before doors and meet a member of the staff at the front of the venue. The
M&G is for YOU an ONLY you - you may not bring a guest. If you have a parent
or guest, they will have to wait outside - ABSOLUTELY NO EXCEPTIONS!!! You
may not bring a camera, but we will have someone there to take your picture.
Details about how to get a copy of your M&G pic will be available at
Hanson.net.

For your Meet & Greet to be valid, you MUST do the following -

1. You must reply to this email FROM YOUR HANSON.NET EMAIL with your full
name within 72 hours of the date/time listed above. If you do not reply
within the specified time, your M&G will be forfeited.

2. You must print this letter and bring it with you to the show.

3. You must bring a photo ID to the show for identification purposes. A
driver's license, school photo ID, passport, etc will be fine.

Once we have confirmation for all M&Gs for your show, we will send out
additional information for you.

Please do NOT post this email in the forums or give out the email address.

The guys look forward to meeting you, see you at the show!!!

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This is so weird. I got a M&G at the last allentown show.. and now I have one for this one. This is like lightning striking twice you guys

I'm trying to take this songs advice lately

2008-04-04T00:47:00Z

THE BEATLES lyrics - Let It Be

(Lennon/McCartney)

When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree
There will be an answer, let it be
For though they may be parted
There is still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Yeah there will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

Let it be, let it be
Ah let it be, yeah let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
And when the night is cloudy
There is still a light that shines on me
Shine on until tomorrow, let it be
I wake up to the sound of music,
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Yeah let it be, let it be
Let it be, yeah let it be
Oh there will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, yeah let it be
Oh there will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Ah let it be, yeah let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

i need advice

2008-04-02T15:31:56Z

I don't know what to do about next year. When i started this year i though that it was going to be this year and another semester and I'd be done. But i forgot all the comlications with science from this semester and now I'd have to take 17 credits in order to graduate when i thought I was going to.

I don't know what to do. part of me tells me to just do it and get it over with and another part of me is telling me that this is a sign that I'm not ready to transfer.

Let's do positives for just getting it done and over with
- i won't have to go back to a scholl I hate for another semester.
- I'd be more willing to get my license and a car asap
- if anything happened at my 4 year school i could be like "well at least i have my associates"

but who gets a job with just an associates?

Postives for spending one more year at occ
-I'd have more time to save for a car and wouldn't feel so rushed to get my license
-I probably would be healthier and would have a less chance of failing because I couldn't make it into class
-I'd have more time to think about 4 year schools and what i want to do next

ugh I just don't know what to do. I just keep remembering my first semester when my mom was telling me not to push myself right away and take a semester off before starting and i wouldn't listen so i went full time and ended up in the hospital and couldn't finish.

I just feel like my health is constantly an excuse. Nobody understands and when i try to explain it everything just sounds like excusues.

I keep picturing myself in the future and i just have no idea how I'm going to be able to be that person if I'm going to have this stupid disease for the rest of my life.

let me vent about my family and the cento bus system

2008-03-26T02:03:07Z

I need a sedative the size of my head after what I went through this afternoon. So I'm sure I've written about it before but I take the bus from college to wal mart where my mom picks me up after work because I can't drive with my fainting thing.

Today.. for the third time the bus driver practically kicked me off the bus and left be standed downtown. Let me tell you about downtown syracuse. It has the highest crime rate in all of new york. Not even exaggerating. So Mom was in SAP training so i couldn't get a hold of her. So i thought to call Ruth and she was like 'well I'm leaving for south caroline in an hour but I'll call my mom and she'll come get you" and I told her that I didn't want her to because my aunt has OCD really bad. But she said that she'd still tell her and she'd call me. I was a little irritated that her trip to SC was more important than you know my life, virginity and possessions. Whatever though i was too frantic to get mad then. So I called mom and left her a voicemail, in tears, yet again. Aunt Donna never called. So i just went and waited outside and prayed that there'd be another bus of my route coming soon. One did come and I thanks God and got ready to get on and it just kept driving. This point I'm like trying to hard to fight tears so my face is looking like a ball of silly putty. Then i had homeless men come up and bother me, that was fun. Finally i got out a bus schedule I always carry with me and saw that there was another bus coming in twenty minutes. So i breathed a sigh of relief but still kinda wanted to crawl under a rug a die. Finally the bus came and I was fine. I was diagnosed with Social anxiety disorder in 2003 and I used to not even be able to go into a store by myself so conquering this was big for me. I did a little victory dance for myself haha.

I texted Ruth later because mom and I were like "well either Tuth didn't bother to call or Aunt Donna just really didn't want to come downtown." neither would surprise me but Ruth was like "oh shit! I forgot! are you still trapped?" I wanted to be like "yeah I'm still trapped downtown at 8 at night no thanks to you" but i didn't haha. I said "well thanks for the help. yeah I'm home" and she apologized but I'm just so sick of her selfishness and freeloading and obnoxiousness. She is not my idea of a christian at all. In fact i know more atheists that are more christian-like than she is.

ugh I'm just so annoyed with my life. I shouldn't be taking the friggin bus. I'm 20 years old. i should be driving abd be independent and be working a real, regular paying job. i should just choke up my health problems for what they are and fight it.. And my family. I love my family more than anything and I thank God everyday for them. I always say that my family always pulls together when one of us is introuble.. but we don't. i don't want to sound like a martyr but my mom is the one that helps every single person in this family out and takes their problems to bed with her at night. No one else does that. And I have to see how hurt she is by it. No one ever thinks about her or me. My brother and Ruth and Anut Donna just think about themselves and don't really give a damn about the rest of us as long as they're happy and they get what they want.

I'm sure I'll regret saying all of this soon but after Nick's birthday and easter, and this long term frustration with aunt donna's ocd and Ruth's complete change of personality in the past year I just feel like we're not really a "family" we're just 5 people who put up with each other on holidays and birthdays.

I just feel like I'm completely alone in this world except for my mom.

he say one and one and one is three

2008-03-24T12:46:39Z

I hope you all had a nice Easter. Mine was okay. It didn't feel like Easter though haha. We went to Ichiban.. it was a lot of fun and the food was to die for. They give you so much though. I hadn't even tasted my entree by the time we left haha. We all laughed a lot. Ruth (my obnnoxious, freeloading cousin) got drunk though and was even more obnoxious and annoying. The weirdest part though and probably the thing that annoys me the most is at the state fair this summer she was acting like such a martyr because she took this pact of not drinking alcohol but yet she gets drunk on easter sunday? Can we say hypocritical?

Nick was okay though. A little depressed about turning 30. Mom and I made him a custom monopoly game and he didn't act that thrilled. It kind of bummed me and mom out. We worked really hard on it. I think he really did like it and he was just tired and annoyed with Ruth and still a little down. At least i hope so haha.

We booked our hotel for Allentown yesterday. I think I'm more excited to get away than i am to see Hanson. Although when I downloaded that free song on the website I was like "aww I love SGR live" then i remembered I'll be hearing it live in a little over a month. I just hope the crowd isn't insane. I just want to enjoy the music and all that.

Back to classes tomorrow. break was nice and relaxing. I'm looking forward to going back though. I have a music mid term tomorrow. boooo. I want an A+ in that class but the first test I only got an 89 on so i doubt that'll happen.

I would like to thank american idol...

2008-03-21T18:11:05Z

because of them I went out today and got The Beatles number ones CD (btw last weeks episode sucked.. everyone disappointed me except Carly, David and David but thank god Amanda is gone.. she scared the bejeebees out of me.) This cd is so good though. I've wanted the original version of hey Jude for like a year now and the cheap indie covers just aren't working anymore.

It just needs a few more songs:
with a little help from my friends (although the joe cocker cover kicks ass)
lucy in the sky with diamonds
oh! darling (one of my faves.. seriously)
don't let me down
blackbird
across the universe

how were those songs NOT number ones? seriously

I don't get why itunes doesn't have the best band in history on it. I suggest they straighten their shit out haha.

I love the lyrics to this song

2008-03-18T23:26:01Z

She said I don't know if I've ever been good enough
I'm a little bit rusty, and I think my head is caving in
And I don't know if I've ever been really loved
By hand that's touched me, well I feel like something's gonna give
And I'm a little bit angry, well

This ain't over, no not here, not while I still need you around
You don't owe me, we might change
Yeah we just might feel good

(Chorus)
I wanna push you around, well I will, well I will
I wanna push you down, well I will, well I will
I wanna take you for granted, I wanna take you for granted, yeah I will, I will

Well I will

She said I don't know why you ever would lie to me
Like I'm a little untrusting when I think that the truth is gonna hurt ya
And I don't know why you couldn't just stay with me
You couldn't stand to be near me
When my face don't seem to want to shine
'cuz It's a little bit dirty well

Don't just stand there, say nice things to me
I've been cheated I've been wronged you,
And you don't know me, I can't change
I won't do anything at all

(Chorus)
I wanna push you around, well I will, well I will
I wanna push you down, well I will, well I will
I wanna take you for granted, I wanna take you for granted, yeah I will, I will

Oh but don't bowl me over
Just wait a minute well it kinda fell apart, things get so crazy, crazy
Don't rush this baby, don't rush this Baby, baby

(Chorus)
I wanna push you around, well I will, well I will
I wanna push you down, well I will, well I will
I wanna take you for granted, yeah, yeah, yeah
I wanna take you, take you, yeah, well I will, I will, I will, I will
I will, I will, I will, Yeah, yeah, push you around,
I'll drag you down, I wanna push you around
Well I will

are you thinking of me cause i'm thinking of you

2008-03-18T00:45:39Z

I got a ton done today.. especially since I was planning on staying in bed on my first day of break..

I cokked a very nice st. patrick's day dinner for mom and myself. Corned beef and cabbage..how clever right? It actually came out pretty well.. I'm still nibbling on it right now.

I did two loads of laundry... and i really need to stop buying new clothes.. i try to make it so i have the perfect amount of hangers (i'm so neurotic) and today i was short by like 10.. whoops!

I wrapped all mom's birthday presents.. which isn't until April 8th

I did a couple of the LAMEST journalism assignments everrrr. Both had to do with watching the news and I absolutely hate the news. I'll take the headlines on AOL today anyday.. thanks.

I watched nine episodes of bewitched *twitches nose like Samantha

I looked into a new diet/lifestyle/whateverthehellyouwanttocallit.. I know i still have a few dieter friends so here's the link to it. www.tlc.com/thin it's basically just eating slower and all that mind over matter what not. He's a really cool guy. His show is on TLC sundays at 9.

I called my cardiologist to push out my appointment cause the timing sucks and after them calling me 4 times (wth?) they told me it's pushed back until September yesss!

that's all but I feel accomplished. Happy St. Patrick's day :)

blahdeblahdeblahblahblahblah

2008-03-08T02:34:04Z

so mom's identity got stolen.. that's number three between the two of us. It's a lot more serious than with mine. Mine was like a guy buying $700 worth of tshirts then it was over and the second some idiot just put a block on all my mail so i didn't get my bills or anything... this guy is like running up charges as fast as he can.. i think there are four now.. and mom had to file a police report.. we spent the evening waiting for an officer to get here but the weather is bad and since its 9 we're thinking they aren't going to show. Mom's really distraught about it though. I feel bad because she's constantly worrying about me, nick and aunt donna and work is running her ragged lately and this was just the last thing that she needed. I gave her one of her birthday presents early (because she was gonna go out and get the same thing.. we're too much alike) and that seemed to make her a little happier but each day is worse than the one before.

ihatemarchihatemarchihatemarch

thats about all.. I'm feeling blue and want to shop right now but the rest of my tax return is in my savings account.. I'm tempted though.. not gonna lie.

american idol

2008-03-06T19:10:22Z

I know a few of my friends on here watch AI.. we were arguing about it journalism lol.. this one guy (very opinionated.. I don't like him) was like "the only people who watch that show are 12 and 13 year old girls" and i was like "umm no i watch american idol religiously" and he was like "yeah but do you buy the albums after the show is over" and I go "uh yeah look at Daughtry and Carrie Underwood" then our prof broke up the debate lol.

dumb. i just wanted to share

and yay for Christian winning PR..

and I'm slitting my wrists

2008-03-05T14:39:00Z

My journalism assignment forces me to listen to the radio. ugh. since when is Miley Cirus played on the radio? gag gag gag. Unless they play 30 minutes of Daughtry (the already played them once haha) I'm going to want to rip out my ear drums.

p.s. I feel like i have all these new friends but no replies to any of my post unless they're about dumb, non important things.. It's kind of disappointing to think that i only have friends when i don't need them

ebay venting

2008-03-04T19:43:39Z

UGH!

i hate ebay i hate it. You know i find it annoying when someone emails me asking for a refund but whatever I'll do it because I want to make my costumers happy and I'm more mad at myself then them because I didn't list it as I should've.

I got my first negative feedback today. Why don't they just email me about it before leaving negative feedback.. now my feedback is down from 100% to 99.5.. it's not a lot but I work hard and that just isn't cool.. and she waits two months to leave feedback? If she were that unhappy she should have emailed me..Plus negative is for buyers who never pay or sellers who don't send out the items.. isn't that a little harsh for a supposed hole in a sweater?

Then my journalism prof asked me about the other girls in my magazine project today.. don't put me in that position.. I don't even know what I said i was so put off by it.. I mean he's the professor shouldn't he make his own judgements?

oh and lets not forget my friggin arrithmia monitor that wouldn't stop beeping last night so I was on the phone for an hour with technical support and now need a new one? sheez

I was actually doing okay today.. i wasn't as upset yesterday as I thought i would be.. I just kinda had a lump in my throat for a while.. i didn't even play "because of you" like i always do.. nothing.. no tears shed at all

I wanted today to be a good day.. March is always such a hit or miss month for me.. always really good or really bad. March is when my dad left, when my mom got diagnosed with sarcoid, when I first passed out from NCS.. it was also when i first got published and a year ago today i had my meet a greet.. seems lame but I always dread this month.

I don't mean to make a mountain out of a molehill.. like in an hour I'll be over this.. its just so frustrating.. i really like ebay and the more i do it and the more i struggle with it I realize that it really is a job for me. It's a lot of work to but the people get so annoying.

all right I'm gonna go blast great divide.. and punch a wall or something.

maybe you could take a look at yourself lately

2008-02-24T21:47:11Z

hmph.. I'm doing a little better.. I'm getting used to this thing being attached to my hip.. it really sucks though because I've been dizzy like 3 or 4 times since I've gotten it but its always when I'm not wearing it. I was really aware of it at first and was making sure my hair covered the electrodes or whatever but now i don't even care..I get to take it off on the 16th so its not a full month.. I'm going to the doctor friday to tell him about those zaps I was having and to see if I've lost anymore weight.. i really don't know what i was last time but I know I've stayed the same on my scales but you all know how doctor's scales are.

My best friend and her boyfriend are amazing because they hooked me up witha new desk (i've been trying to redecorate my room for a while now) and its wicked nice. My old one was big and kinda looked like an amoire.. but this one is an actual desk.. I got it all set up all by myself too and got to beat the hell out of the other one which was a lot of fun. It's not in one big pile on my floor. I scvrewed up my computer speakrs though and had to get new ones. That kinda sucked but i just look at it as I paid that much for the desk.

I've been doing wayy too much shopping with my tax return money and my refunds from school. I already have my summer wardrobe basically.. and I'm working on redoing my bathroom.. it's these ugly purple roses that we've now had for 6 years since we moved in so i wanted to do it in this theme:

so cute. Tomorrow I'm doing more shopping with aunt donna and ruth so that'll be fun.

Tis all au revoir.

Finally something good!

2008-02-22T14:38:23Z

Hanson tour <3333

Allentown I'm definitely going to.. and I'm working on Lancaster. yay!

I really need a break from all this crap

2008-02-21T00:21:06Z

okay.. so I have a bunch of new friends but I'll just say again that i have this random fainting syndrome and it's gotten kind of serious.. I can't drive.. can only go to school part time.. and it just sucks.

so last time i saw my cardiologist they said something about this monitor I'd be wearing for a month to track whenever I get dizzy.. I guess I was in denial cause i was shocked and devastated and just plain pissed off when it got here today. I feel like friggin machine with these electrodes everywhere and if i get dizzy at campus what am i supposed to do? Let this thing beep away in the middle of a lecture? It's obnoxious too.. it sounds like signing on to dial up internet..

I would give anything to just be a normal 20 year old college student. anything.

you know what?

2008-02-19T23:52:21Z

I'm not paying hanson forty dollars to renew my membership until these supposed dates are released.. so there!

And if they don't play some place i can go.. like PA or any place in Ny other than the city I am going to cry.. like weep and sob after what i went through with buffalo..

and i'm done

i'm so scared that i'll never get put back together

2008-02-17T01:09:18Z

I'm going to hell..

My friend that i wrote about last week.. the one who thought she had cancer tried to commit suicide last week. I hadn't heard from her but i figured she just took some time off work to figure things out. Even now while I talk to her I feel frustrated.. like i think she's vague just to be dramatic..
LiLAngeLGirLy03 (6:53:43 PM): i attempted it
WhenYouSTAYx (6:53:52 PM): what?
LiLAngeLGirLy03 (6:54:06 PM): suicide

I'm so fricken unhappy lately.. I just want to lock my door and shut out the world for a week.. I need my mom to stop nagging me about drinking enough water and taking my pills, i really don't need to deal with the stress of classes, i need to stop worrying about money and getting enrolled in driving school.. i just need a break.. and this was the absolute last thing I needed to hear.

yayyy

2008-02-13T15:48:09Z

I bought myself an ipod last night.. I'm so excited! I think it's the first big thing i ever bought myself without using a credit card..

it's so cute too.. i got it engraved with hanson lyrics of course

I listed my shuffy on ebay this morning.. hopefully I'll get at least half of what i paid.

3 posts in one day.. what a loser

2008-02-12T19:41:46Z

I just need to vent right now.

I'm going to sound like a wicked bitch but I'm so fed up i don't even care.

I have this friend and she found out she might have cancer.. and I feel for her really i do but she's one of those people who when you have something bad happen to you she has something that's always worse. Anyway then her boyfriend threw her out blah blah blah. The girl hasn't even gotten the test to see if it is cancer and she's friggin planning her funeral. I feel like she's using this cancer thing as a thing to get attention and feel sorry for herself.. like i understand its hard and you're scared but don't tell people that you want to drive off a cliff or get a tattoo just so you can feel the pain.. i mean how dumb is that? Life sucks sometimes.. it's not fun for any of us just suck it up.. god!

and you know i have health problems too.. not as severe but whenever I'm having a bad day or whatever she won't even give me the chance to talk about because she's so preoccupied with her own problems. I'm so sick of being treated like I'm just here to serve everyone else's purposes.

i'm going home to the place where i belong

2008-02-12T16:21:27Z

haha check this out.

There's a place for us at least I think there was

2008-02-12T14:33:05Z

so I suppose i should actually do a write up...

things are going pretty well. i had a bad week last week with my NCS but it seems to be getting much better. I'm still working on getting back in my old routine. Sometimes i think it would be easier if i came to campus more than two days a week but then i change my mind. quickly.

Journalism is an awesome class. We have a lot of interesting topics to discuss and my class is full of a lot of people that like to question and debate things like me so it's perfect.

We got the taxe done this week so i should be getting some extra money.. plus mom is enrolling me in drivers ed, whether i i like it or not. I'm sure i'll love driving once i get over my panic thing.
I'm seriously considering getting the new ipod nano with my return.. anyone recommend it? I'm so sick of my shuffle playing the same fricken playlist everytime i turn it on i want to throw it against the wall. I haven't gotten myself anything really nice in a long time though so i think i deserve it. With the rest of my money I have to renew hanson.net and pay bills whoo hoo!

I've been working on a quilt for my mom's birthday in april.. oh my gosh its a pain. I'm technilogically challenged so I'm stitching it by hand. all of it. It's going to take me forever a day. Plus mom and I are woking on making nick a costum monopoly for his birthday so i have lots of projects I'm working on to keep me busy.

I was telling mom on the way to school this morning about niki having another baby and she was like "oh is he all recovered from his surgery?" and I was like "I guess so!" haha those boys pop out babies fater than they pop out albums. But yay for them.

tis all for now. au revoir for now.

p.s. don't waste your money going to see untraceable. don't.

Vitamin String Quartet

2008-02-09T03:15:58Z

all of you should go on itunes and look up the Vitamin String quartet.. They do modern music like U2, nirvana, pretty much anything and everything. I just downloaded their Daughtry songs and i love themmmm. I've always love string instruments and it's really cool to hear such modern and familiar songs sounding so classy.